I have 25 more days…
"I’m going to wake up and its going to over" I told my roommate. It is like I’m dying but in reality I’m reborn.
Many refer to it as finished and even though that will be true, there is soo much more. I finished something that meant the world to me and family.
I finished something that I will miss and cherish.
The time in my life where I had nothing to hide, I wore my faith everyday for a year!
And because of this, I realized I’m never finished with my faith.
My faith is always going to be with me, guiding me.
I haven’t finished because there is always more to learn.
In this year, I found out whats important.
I experienced heart break
I experienced self healing. I saw my self and admitted to myself all the problems I want to change. Some that I still need to change.
I learned self respect. I learn to respect others.
I learned to not judge so quickly. That everyone has a story.
I learned how and when to react.
I learned to forgive
I learned that no matter your parents,friends and other people you have trust and faith in, its you and God.
Humans are full of mistakes, but you can always trust in God.
Don’t ever sacrifice that for anyone.
Haven’t been on here in a long time!
I am 20 years old and I probably started using tumblr when I was 17 or so. Which makes times seems like it flying by.
And this idea that life is continuously going is nerve wrecking but also motivating.
I am getting older and I some days I catch myself thinking about how far I have come. How things have changed and how they are continuing to change.
I think more than ever I am career driven. I see friends of mine graduating and getting jobs in their fields of choice or getting accepted into amazing graduate school.
I have plans for this next year which might kill me but I am going to do it anyway!
I hope within this next year I have completed an internship before I start my senior year.
I hope i get the position at UIWtv as the entertainment director next semester.
And graduate on time.
The list goes on.
But as I become focused on my career I hope I don’t become so dedicated to “making it” that I lose my faith, my sense of self , my friends and all the things that matter.
I know my career field is very based on looks and if you appeal to public.
So as I think about this dilemma being in my future, it is very much in my present.
I do things to for my career and sometimes I feel like I’m jeopardizing other things.
But my work always pays off.
So as I continue this journey to my goals, I hope that I really hone in on my values in all my projects and endeavors.
Lemony Snicket, The Ersatz Elevator (via thebooker)
this confuses me, but I understand it. smh.(via aroyalmind)